Have you ever had that feeling that only crying can help fix? Do you ever feel so overwhelmed with emotion or so caught up in whats going on around you that when you sit and think about it the tears just start flowing? Well, that’s me…
I am a very reserved, quiet and most times an introvert person. So speaking about and sharing how I feel about certain things does not come easy. Typing this part about being an introvert forced me to search to see exactly what that included and its characteristics. Then I came across one of those online quizzes called the ““Quiet Revolution Personality Test”, so I figured you know why not?? So I tried it. And guess what!! I am an Introvert!! and the evaluation could not be any more correct than they gave, because I read it and was like that is so meeee… and my jaw dropped
Based on your responses, you are an introvert.
Given the choice, you’ll devote your social energy to a small group of people you care about most, preferring a glass of wine with a close friend to a party full of strangers. You think before you speak, have a more deliberate approach to risk, and enjoy solitude. You feel energized when focusing deeply on a subject or activity that really interests you. When you’re in overly stimulating environments (too loud, too crowded, etc.) you tend to feel overwhelmed. You seek out environments of peace, sanctuary, and beauty; you have an active inner life and are at your best when you tap into its riches.
I highlighted that part because of the extreme accuracy.. I sometimes even sit alone with my glass of wine and my thoughts.. just the three of us in our little space *smiles*
So I write.. and even when I write I mask some of those emotions because hey that’s what writers do right?? we write to make ourselves feel better but without letting out what we are feeling or that we are sometimes hurting ourselves.
But why do I cry???
I cry because sometimes I feel overwhelmed; I feel like things around me seem to be closing in and I have no way out. I cry because sometimes I feel little in faith and question why certain things happen to me even when I consider myself to be a “good person”. I cry because I feel happy; on those days I sit and just ponder on all that I have accomplished and can’t keep in the tears during those thoughts. I cry when I am sad, or when I think of and remember sad moments that have occurred in my life. I cry because sometimes I feel weak from being strong for everybody else and not sure if I am strong enough for myself. But most times I cry just because… just because crying is the natural thing for me when all other emotions fail; when I am not sure what emotion is taking over or not sure how to feel; just because I know when I cry I let out everything and know that I will feel better afterwards.
And when I cry, I cryyyy… Eyes get puffy afterwards and all that jazz…. A good cry works wonders for me and allows me to express the waterfall of the emotion, pain and hurt that I do not often verbally express. I cry because I “feel” and with those feelings my outward expression manifests through tears better than they do through speaking.
So my name is Joanne and I cry; I cry alot… But I cry knowing that I am strong enough to sometimes be weak.
So do you cry???
Talk to you soon Lovies.